Amanda and Jordan have their first kiss.
“Suze, gotta sec?” We leave the rest of our group in the main quadrangle looking at Vogue and move just out of hearing range.
Now I have her attention I’m not sure what to say. I knew exactly what I wanted to say earlier, but now that the older, more experienced girl is right in front me I am feeling a bit rattled. “Ah… You have a… sort of… um… thing… with Jordan?”
She shrugs. “So?”
“I was just wondering… if it’s not a problem… of course I totally understand if it is. But the thing is… ah… well, just that… um… it would be great if… um…”
She sighs and rolls her eyes. “What?”
I’m losing her. Suze has a rep for being a Bad Girl and the biggest put down she gives something is that it is ‘boring’ or ‘lame’ – and from her stare I can see that I’m rapidly becoming just that. There is a pit in my stomach as I fumble for the words. Come on girl; out with it. “I need a favour. If you’re okay with it, I want to make out with Jordan.” There, I’ve said it.
“All the girls do. Join the queue. I don’t own him.”
She’s not bothered in the least; whatever was I worried about? “Okay. Great. Thanks. Um… But, how do I do that? I’ve been flirting with him and I think he likes me, but he doesn’t make a move. I’ve seen him with other girls and he’s all over them. What am I doing wrong?”
“I’ve seen him look at you. He likes you alright.” She gives me a sort of knowing smirk as if to say ‘I know something you don’t’.
Great. I so want him to be my first real kiss. I’ve touched lips with a couple of boys, but no tongue or anything.
But Suze has something on her mind. “Tell me; how long have you known him?”
Good question. Since he started Karate, I guess. “About four or five years.”
“Yeah. I thought so. I’ve seen you two together and you’re like the little sister he never had. You’ll need to show him that you are not just some little girl.”
“How? Do I ask him to kiss me?”
She shakes her head. “Don’t be stupid. For a girl who’s suppose to be so super smart, you can be a real doofus sometimes.”
I feel the warmth of my cheeks flushing. The pit in my stomach is back.
“No. Just tell him you want to go to the shops with him after school. He’ll get the message. Everyone knows you only go to the shops to make out.”
I didn’t. “Oh. Okay. Thanks.”
We rejoin the others where Mich is showing Lisa and Simone an article in her mother’s Vogue. We chat for a bit, then Mich, Bec and I head off. As soon as we get out of range, the girls want to know how I got on.
“Suze was cool with it. Now I just need to find Jordan.”
“And I want to talk to David.” Mich has a bit of thing going there.
“Then can we find Gavin?” Bec is so crushing on him.
“Sure. Let’s go.”
We find Jordan, David and Luke talking in the corridor. I give Jordan a tilt of the head to indicate that I want talk to him privately and we leave the others chatting.
“’Sup” he asks.
Okay. Here goes. “Do you want to go shopping with me?”
“Can’t your Mum go with you?”
Huh? What’s he talking about? Jordan stares at me puzzled as if I’ve gone mad. Oh, no. Suze was wrong. He thinks I’m just some silly little girl. I need to get out of here; fast – before he sees the tears swelling in my eyes. I’m such a fool. Whatever was I thinking. Why would Jordan like me? I really am such a doofus.
“Sorry. My mistake. I thought you would’ve liked to go to the shops with me.”
He stops me as I turn to flee. “You want to go to the shops with me?”
“Yes.” Duh. That’s what I said. Is he hard of hearing or something?
He gently puts a hand on my face and wipes away a tear with his thumb. His hand feels so nice on my cheek; both soft and firm. Breathing in his scent – he smells of boy, sort of musky. I could just stand here like this all day. Mmmm… I suddenly realise that I have been pushing my cheek into his hand in order to be closer to him.
“Okay. Be at the main gate after last bell.” He gives me a smile, which turns into a cheeky grin. “But I warn you it will take more than a few tears to have your way with me. I’m not that easy. What sort of a boy do you think I am?”
Oh. I’ve seen that grin. That’s the look he gives all those other girls. He’s flirting with me! I feel a warm flush go through me and a tingle – down there!
“Ah…” Well, say something witty. “I’m sure that you won’t be able to resist me.”
He grins back. “Resistance is futile.”
A Star Trek reference – good one. He can assimilate me any time.
We head back to the others and us girls take our leave.
“I’ve done it. We’re on.” I say.
Mich and Bec both give a squeal and we all have a little group hug.
“And I’m on with David.” gushes Mich.
“Now can we go find Gavin?”
We all meet up at the main gate after the last bell and head off to the shops with our respective partners. Jordan is teasing me like mad. I know that he does this with all those other girls, but right now I am feeling like the only girl in the world.
At the shops Jordan sits on a bench and gestures for me to sit next to him. I don’t think so. I’ve seen the older girls do this and I’ll be dammed if some Year 8 shows me up. Standing in front of Jordan I place my hands on his shoulders, take one foot over the bench, then the other, and end up sitting on his lap facing him. Perfect. In the corner of my eye I can see the other girls have followed my example so that we are all lined up, ready to dive in.
He grins back at me as I look down into his green eyes. I have dreamt about this for so long that the anticipation is killing me, but I want to savour every moment.
His lips are warm and soft, the contact sending a tingle through me. The air rich with his musky boy scent. His hand at my waist; the other in my hair on the nape of my neck. Mine in his. Our mouths open; my tongue meets his; an explosion of sensation. I can’t think; I can’t breathe. His skin feels like fire under my touch. What is happening both excites and terrifies me at the same time. I have never felt this close to anyone before. I wrap my arms tightly around his neck, squeezing my eyes shut to keep out the world. Right now there is just my tongue and his; and they are one. I want this moment to last at long as possible; to stay right here, forever. Nothing else matters, only what’s happening between the two of us is real.
Jordan pulls back slightly, our breathing heavy as we look into each others eyes. There’s a beep of a car horn and I look up to see Mum waving at me from the car park.
“It’s Mum. I’ve got go.”
“Okay.” he says.
I press my lips on his again and our tongues meet one last time.
Untangling myself from him, I grab my bag. “I’ll see you tomorrow.”
“Think about me.” he replies giving me a cheeky grin.
“Oh, I will.” I gush. Will I ever; my dreams are on overtime tonight for sure.
The girls are ready so we all head off to meet Mum for the ride home. She smiles at me as I get in the passenger side next to her.
“Did you girls have a good day?” she says with a smirk.
“Oh yes.” I say. Bec and Mich are nodding in the back.
“I saw the three of you when I went into the supermarket and you were still there when I came out. I was beginning to wonder if you were ever going to come up for air.”
“Ow Mum. Really.” I feel my cheeks flush yet again. Looking back Bec and Mich have both gone bright red, the look of horror frozen on their faces.
“You won’t say anything. Will you?” says Mich somewhat shakily.
“Don’t worry. Your mum won’t hear it from me. But if you are going to kiss boys in public you might want to talk to her before someone else does.”
Mum gives me a wink and we give the boys a wave as we drive off. She’ll want a full debriefing when we get home. I’m so glad I can tell my mum everything.
All people, places and events depicted are real, just not in this universe.
© Paul Shipley